BeautyAndTheBeast

So, I love school.

Last week was HORRENDOUS! Broke my foot. Stress fracture doing... yoga. Of all things, I get a stress fracture doing YOGA. Yeah, that's me. I'm in a walking cast for 3 weeks. Started last week on Sunday, when I lost my debit card and Drivers licence. Monday I overslept for an hour and had to miss a class. Later that day, didn't get all my Calc II homework done. Tuesday, don't really remember. Wednesday, broke my foot. Thursday, spent 4 hours getting my foot checked out, missed work. The broken foot meant the backpacking trip I've been planning since May was out.
I've been working on homework the rest of the weekend, with a wonderful movie date with my sister to the dollar theater Saturday. Sunday, slept WAY to much, but got work done. Missed church :(. Today, I got to see Thousand Foot Krutch though. Totally exciting :D

I'm really hoping that this week goes a lot better. Kinda feel a migraine coming on though, so that's not good. I almost feel ready for this week.

Deep thought time! What scares you? Is it the ride at the amusement park? Riding in a car? Is it snakes? I realized while upside down on a roller coaster ride, what scares me the most is people. People. Rides have been tested, they are predictable. Snakes, are predictably dangerous. When you are driving a car, you're in somewhat of control. Riding a plane has been tested and proved to be super safe, at least safer than most things. Guns, totally predicable, if you keep them up, they shoot a projectile when you pull the trigger.

People are not predictable. No matter how long you've known a person, they always do something that you are not expecting. This has been proven time and time again to me by people. Either they have changed, or they have not changed. The person's ability to fool you into loving, liking, or getting along with them is just part of people in general. It's also scary how completely you can give your heart to someone. It doesn't have to be a significant other to break your heart. It can be a friend that you've finally trusted who walks away from you. A friend that you kinda don't trust completely that has fooled you into thinking they care about you, then you realize that you need to walk away from them.

People and their ability to adapt to a situation is scary. Have you ever noticed how different people act around different groups of friends? That's the person adapting to fit the situation. I don't care how comfortable you are with yourself, you act differently around certain people. Those people only see the person you present them with. They don't get to see the whole picture. No one besides you knows the whole picture. God knows the whole picture and sees the ship hidden in the Micky mouse look book.

Maybe love isn't seeing the whole picture of someone, but knowing that from that one part that you see, that you would love to see the other parts of the picture that someone is willing to show you. Maybe love is helping another person draw parts of the picture. Love isn't trying to white wash the picture and start over. Love is waking up every morning and seeing something new in the picture that is sitting in front of you. Whether or not you like it, you say, that's interesting, I wonder what part of the painting this is, and how it will turn out. No matter what, you are loyal to the painting, and will continually choose to love what you see.

Wow. What a rabbit hole I went down....