47 Questions

Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer.

1) How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
That depends, sometimes I would think of myself as a little kid, and others, I would think I'm middle aged.

2) Which is worse, failing or never trying?
If you never try, you never fail. But if you never try, you never go anywhere. So I guess never trying would be worse. Someone needs to remind me of this next time I fail.

3) If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
We do things we don't like so that we can do the things we do like. Life is kinda like doing your chores when you were younger, the faster you do the dishes, the sooner you can go outside and play. The mistake that some people make is making life about the chores, and not about playing.

4) When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I really hope not. But if I have said more, I hope that my actions have at least spoken louder than my words.

5)What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Prejudice. Not just about race, or ethnicity, but also age, money, cliques or anything. I don't want to say that everyone needs to get along, but sometimes, the best you can do is accept what others are doing, even if you don't agree with it. People value their freedoms so much, but do they ever stop to think about the freedoms of the person next to them?

6)If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Being an engineer, or owning my own business, maybe owning a funeral home... the world is full of possibilities.

7)Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Right now, I'm doing what I believe in. I believe that you NEED a college education, how and when I get that degree is still unseen, but I'll get there eventually.

8)If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
Marriage would be higher on my priority list. And Kids would be up there. I would like to see my grandchildren before I die.

9)To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I hope not controlled, just steered it. Ever choice I make affects my life. So, in that sense I've steered it a lot.

10) Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing things right. I assume I'm doing the right thing.

11) You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Ask why they said that, and give them the what-are-you-thinking look.

12) If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Your parents are actually right most of the time, but don't let them control you. Sometimes people need to make their own mistakes.
13) Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Speed? yes. Kill someone? No. Harbor a fugitive? No. So I will break a 'minor' law, but nothing big.

14) Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Yes! Just ask Elise...

15) What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Obsess. I obsess about the weirdest things and in the weirdest ways.

16) How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Because I am not everyone else.

17) What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Fall Madly in love and get married and have kids. It's not the time for it in my life, and I don't have a guy.... that guy part is kinda key...

18) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yeah, anger at some people that have hurt me over the years.

19) If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Australia or Oregon. Because it would be an adventure (AUS) and because my parents live there, it would nice to live a little closer.

20) Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No, and No, it doesn't make the elevator go faster.

21) Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Joyful simpleton all the way! You can't be happy if you're worried about everything, but you can be worried, even if you're a simpleton.

22)Why are you, you?
Because I choose to be me. No matter how weird I am,how diverse my music taste is, what I want to be when I grow up, how I act around others, what things I value in my life, how I treat those around me, bow I try to keep my anger in check, how I do my work, what shows I like. There is so much more! But mostly God makes me me.

23) Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Definitely. I want a friend that doesn't flake, and that will be there for me no matter what. A friend that would go out of the way to help me. A friend that is thoughtful of what I'm feeling and how my day was.

24) Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Loosing touch with a good friend. If a friend moves away, you can still talk to them, but if you fall away from a friend, even if they are right nearby, you loose that person to talk to.

25) What are you most grateful for?
My God and Family

26) Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
I would rather loose all the old memories, because eventually your new memories will take their place. But if you never made new memories, you would never remember what happened yesterday, even if you would rather remember what is going on with you right now rather than what happened that embarrassing day at school.

27)Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
No, you don't KNOW anything unless you've tested it.

28)Has your greatest fear ever come true?
No, and I don't ever think I will put myself in a position for it to come true.

29) Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Right about this time 5 years ago, I lost a good friend because she made me choose between her and my boyfriend. It took me awhile to remember it... It only matters now because it has become part of who I am and why I do things the way that I do.

30) What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
Pulling Big Bear off the trail when we went backpacking at three rivers with just my family. It's special because that's one of the only backpacking trips I remember with my mom. I don't remember any big fights, and it was beautiful. The weather was super nice too. I guess I was about 6 or 7.

31) At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
If not now, then when? If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
A couple years ago in the rain forest of Washington up near Forks.

32) Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Absolutely!

33) Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
I believe it's because they love the love they've found they think that everyone else should have it, even if they don't want it. That's when they try to force it on other people.

34) Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
Yes, if it is saying something contradictory to what the Bible has laid out, it is evil.

35) If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
No, I don't have to be here now, but I want to be.

36) Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work I like doing.

37) Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
No, because my coke exploded in my backpack and wrecked my ochem book then I stepped into gum. That was definitely not a daily occurance.

38) When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
When I told my parents I was going to marry Bryce H.

39) If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Family, extended family, Ashley S. Bryce, Emily.

40) Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
Absolutely not.

41) What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Being alive is just doing what you need to get by, truly living is enjoying each day.

42) When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When you have nothing to lose or you believe in the right thing so much you don't calculate to begin with, you just do it.

43) If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
I feel like when I make a mistake, everyone looks down on me and thinks less of me.

44) What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I probably wouldn't be as shy.

45) When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
This morning, my nose is stuffy and it was whistling a little.

46) What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love nature, and my family, and Melano. And yes, I tell them all every time I talk to them, and I try to do little things that I know will brighten up their day.

46) In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
I won't remember each day, but I'll remembered failing that test last week and maybe how sick I was...

47) Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Ponder that.