GF journal Oct 16, 2012

I’m so angry, I keep failing. And I keep getting sick. And I’m tired of putting on a smile and just dealing with it. Why does God put me on this path to be an engineer then put a bajillion things in my way all the time? Why can’t I go a semester without have some sort of medical crisis? A crisis that always affects my studies. Why me? Why can’t I just have a normal semester? Why can’t I pass the classes I study my butt off for? Why do I have to keep failing? At what point do you stop getting up after being pushed down?