Obligations

"Simply let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No'; anything beyond this comes from the evil one." ~Matthew 5:37

Wow, this is so hard to follow. And honestly, I don't want to follow this. But I love the Lord and me doing this will make Him happy. I want to make Him happy. I said yes to something about a month ago, and tomorrow I have to go through with it. And, as lame as it is, it's just a hike with a couple of friends.

But honestly, I think I take obligations and commitments way more seriously than other people. At least it always feels that way. I'm going to be having to recite this verse over and over in my head tomorrow.

I'm in such a weird mood this week. I'm guessing the wedding just set me off, and I haven't been able to get back on track. Which is totally annoying... You know it's horrible when you annoy yourself. I can't imagine how people around me feel.

Maybe a day to wallow would be good, or it could just push me into a deeper funk. I wish one of my friends here would notice and try to cheer me up. Times like this I miss my sister the most. She's really good at cheering me up. So is my family. I miss them.

I don't want to grow up. I officially don't live at home anymore. I know, I've been in college for 2 years now, and I guess it's just finally sinking in that I don't live at home. I mean, I'm working on buying checks for myself. And I'm renting my first place. I'm really not just away at college and go home on the breaks. I live in Albuquerque, and I VISIT my parents. It's weird. I don't wanna grow up. Decisions are hard. I need to be the better person and take the higher road, I'm an adult. Yikes!!!