Success!!

I heard on the radio today that failure paves the way to success. But is everything always a success or failure? I mean, What makes you successful or a failure, and do they mean in daily life, at a task, or your days on earth to date? Sometimes I'm a failure and sometimes I'm a success.

Take today for instance. This morning at work, we got 7 ready for Medical school (to start in 2 weeks), and I got 2 ready to be shelved (mostly by myself! J ), all in about 2.5 hours. So that's a success. But this afternoon at Calc II, I got my last test back and I had failed with a 50%. Plus, I had to cancel on one friend twice today, only to reschedule for later. Does all these separate events amount to a successful day or a bad day?

On top of that, I was looking at facebook, and wound up looking up some old friends. They are at 'better' colleges, off traipsing the world, and with a significant other, whether they are serious or in a committed relationship. I admitidly go to a state school (yay for scholarships!! It helps that this college has amazing programs that I'm interested in), I am staying at home this summer to work, and retake a math course that I failed last spring. I'm not going on any big vacation, and I most certainly don't have a boyfriend. In fact, I have a hamster named Wicket…. Anyways, do these things make me a failure, or just normal?

Actually, I'm just me. But sometimes it would feel better to have that 'glamorous' life. Even though I'm absolutely in love with my life, and where God has placed me, even if I do forget about it.

Wicket is a Dwarf Hamster that looks like the Ewok that Princess Liea plays with ( whose name is Wicket W. Warick or something…). She and I are living together in my 2 bedroom mini house until my sister gets back from her exchange trip in Germany. I'm sure she's told me when that is, but I seem to have forgotten. That happens when stuff isn't written down… in a place I can see and remember.

This week I'm going to work on memorizing Isaiah 30:21

    Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying " This is the way; walk in it." (TNIV)

Blogging?

What is blogging? Is it a place to post my feelings and have people read them? Is it a place where I recap my day? Maybe it is a place to put my epic thoughts of that day. I don't know what it'll be. I don't really have a good habit of editing my thoughts. Goodness, I edit what I say, and I never edit what I write in my Journal. Maybe this will be a place in between what I say and what I've written.

I really don't want this to be a place where I write down my most intimate details, I know they will get out then. I also know this is not a place that I want to write about the drama in my life. Because I try to keep that to a minimum (even if that doesn't always happen).

I had a moment in my life this week. I worked alone and didn't mess up... too much.I'm cetain that I'll remember at least my feelings about doing it alone. It is a moment that I took the time to appreciate. You know, actually pause and say 'How do I feel at this moment?' and stick it in my memory bank.

I've got a few memories that I've saved that way. Just as files in my mental filling cabinet, kept only for me to look back on. Something personal and something that absolutely no one can take away from me.

Some people say it takes 12 days to make a habit, so my goal for the next few weeks (barring the days with no internet this weekend) is to write everyday. At the end of the time, I'll evaluate if blogging, whatever it turns out to be, is something that I want to do.

~Whit