Illness

So, anything labeled illness, pertains to what I'm doing and feeling everyday. So it's easier for people to follow just my health and not necessarily everything else.

Today is 2 days before my colonoscopy. Semi-restricted diet starts today. Blah. I already messed up though. I'm not supposed to eat nuts, and I ate a Hershey's kiss with almonds... whoops. I'm fairly certain when I admit my mistake to the nurse, they'll chuckle.

I actually started to eat non chemically foods. Which means organic and not so processed. No more easy lunches of frozen dinners. But I'm hoping that this will help my migraines more now that I don't have the medication to control them as much.

Blah Blah Blah: ke$ha

Revelations 3:19 "I correct and discipline everyone I love. So be diligent and turn from your indifference."

I get a bible verse from a Christian Radio station everyday, and somehow it always seems to apply to a problem that I'm facing. And today it fit that problem perfectly.
2ith all the illness going on, I've stopped caring. I've turned my life on auto-pilot and I'm just trying to get through it. This verse seemed to call out to me. 'Whitney, the indifference you feel... yeah, cut it out.'

It felt like it cut me to the core. Why am I letting myself feel indifferent? God is holding me in his hands right now and I should be so excited that He knows that with His help, I can handle what I'm going through. He didn't give me these trial for me to just get through, but for me to grow closer to Him with. Anyone can 'get through it' but only with His love can they grow in it and shine His love.

When I googled the verse (I hate to admit it but I didn't look at a Bible because I didn't have one on me) and it gave me a bunch of verse versions. Most other versions had zealous and repent. I'm usually a stickler for more traditional versions of the bible, but sometimes you just need it spelled out plainly. Hence why I have a message version.

My goal this week is to not only diligent but not to be indifferent.

I talked to the professor in Biomolecular Engineering today. And he told me that I'm doing fine in everything, just to keep going. I told him that I finally got my care back. He smiled and said 'That's good'. Just that little smile and to know that this teacher really does care about how I'm doing and what's going on in my life has made my day better. Gives me hope on what's going on.

Sick and tired if being sick and tired

I thought the pain in my abdomen was finally going away so I got to do a bunch of stuff at work. It felt great to do something productive. Now it hurts a bunch again, for a second there I thought it was starting to get better.

Illness

Today I had my CT scan with contrasts and I managed to keep the oral contrast down this time!
Finally semi vertical after the killer migraine I had yesterday and Tuesday.

Illness pt 2

Woke up with a killer migraine for the 2nd day in a row. And I'm running out of pain killers :$

Not looking forward to the CT scan. Rather not looking forward to the contrast that I have to drink. Last time I had this contrast I was super nauseous from it.

Illness pt 1

Hello everyone! In order to get everyone apprised of what is going on with me, I thought I'd post it on my blog and let everyone read up on it if they so choose.

So! just to get everyone up to par, I thought I'd just summarize everything now and then just post updates as everything goes on. Test results, Dr appoints and such.

Week 1 Originally, I thought all of this was just an ovarian cyst so I put it off for awhile. Then it got to be too much and I had suffered though my tests so I went to an urgent care clinic Monday morning and got an appointment with an OB-GYN the next day. And some pain medications... Tuesday: I had an appointment with the OB-GYN and she set up an Ultrasound for the next day. Wednesday: Ultrasound, but the Tech wouldn't tell me anything. Then Friday: I missed an appointment with my Neurologist because they changed addresses across town and didn't let me know.

Week 2: Monday brought another OB-GYN appointment for me. With that brought the news that I did have a large hemorrhagic cyst on my right ovary but it had burst. Also, although this would cause me pain, it wouldn't cause the amount of pain that I was in. So I got set up with a GI specialist and a general surgeon.

Now I don't remember the dates and I'm too lazy to look them up so I'm just going to go with what I remember as the correct timeline

I went to the GI guy, and he said something about Crohns disease, which is where your immune system attacks your large intestine or something like that. So I have a colonoscopy scheduled

Then I had an appointment with general surgery and the nice Dr that told me there are only 3 things that could be wrong in that particular region. Ovaries, GI something that general surgery can deal with.

Oh, and on top of all of this, that blind spot the eye Dr saw this summer? Turned out to be a big thing. They just messed up all the migraine meds it took me years to figure out how to use to the best for me and stopped most of my migraines. Because my meds stopped, my headaches are back. So pain meds for that.

So, next on my list of appointments. This Thursday I have a CT. Next Wednesday I have the colonoscopy. and the MRI date is TBA unfortunately.

-Whit

Our God : Chris Tomlin

So.
1) I'm super sick
2) I'm walking into a test knowing I don't have a chance
3) I'm super behind on homework

Thank goodness God still loves me and has this in his plan for me

Blackbird: Sarah McLachlan

So. I'm scared stiff.

For the past week, I've been super drugged and having to miss school due to major pain. I think it's an ovarian cyst. Although I've had trouble finding a doctor to deal with it, and then they ordered all these tests but I won't know the answers until tomorrow morning. And I'm really scared. Really scared. Not only am I dealing with ovary pain, but I have to go to the neurologist this week to talk to him about the blind spot that the optometrist found that is due to my brain. Then I have a test Wednesday in a class I have not been able to go to the class for a week. Right after the test, I go to Hartford for a conference over fall break, which means I give up my break to do some more school, but not school enough to do all the homework I've missed. then the next weekend, I go to... oh yeah, Houston to a cousins wedding. Oh goodness. So much stress. I've actually started to get some heartburn again :(

I know God has me, but I'm scarred.

oh, and I found a weird bruise feeling on the back of my scalp along with a new bump on my skull. Weird.