Oi.
It's Summer!!!! Woot!
Day 3,498 of the Lumbar puncture headache. Just kidding, it's only day 12. Let me tell you, 12 days with a constant headache is ridiculous. On the bright side, it shouldn't hurt too much longer. Theoretically.
Today I'm at the Anatomy Lab working, where I will work 10-15 hours a week and tomorrow I start an internship at a research lab on main campus. Which looks exciting. I'm going to be able to learn how to work a lot of chemistry testing machinery and get some great skills. I'm not completely passionate about the work, but I'm super excited to learn how to do these things. I'm fine with this, I don't have to be completely in love with the project to do a good summer job, and to be excited for the results that I produce. This isn't going to be my thesis project or anything. Who knows, maybe this summer I will fall in love with the project and want to continue on.
It's all looking like my summer plans are working out, I just hope that I don't keep getting sick and ruin everything. At lest, ruin it according to what I've planned out.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Little Lion Man - Tonight Alive
You know those weeks when you... BLAH. Ya know? Not just your normal but nothing-is-happening-how-it-is-supposed-to there-is-way-to-much-changing blah.
That is where I am.
School ended, I'm meeting for an internship tomorrow, my co-worker at work changed, I'm having to deal with a new type of being sick, and Ash is going to China. That is a lot for this introvert to handle in a week.
If you didn't know, if you had to say I had one super power it would be super-introvert. I am completely fine with this. I even embrace this, but sometimes a new situation comes up and I have no idea how to handle it. I don't like not being in control. In order to deal with this, I've learned that I should stop trying on some things and that God truly is in control of everything. Sometimes though, my plans of what I am not in control of are challenged. That's when things get tough to deal with for me.
On top of that, the person I'm looking to intern for just sent me some papers that the head of the lab wrote and co-authored. I had to google the main thing in one of the titles... That bodes well for the rest of the summer (NOT). I'm so glad that I asked for some papers on what they study and are researching, because otherwise I would look like a dunce in the interview tomorrow. Now, to read and understand 30 pages by the morning. And here I thought I was out for the summer...
That is where I am.
School ended, I'm meeting for an internship tomorrow, my co-worker at work changed, I'm having to deal with a new type of being sick, and Ash is going to China. That is a lot for this introvert to handle in a week.
If you didn't know, if you had to say I had one super power it would be super-introvert. I am completely fine with this. I even embrace this, but sometimes a new situation comes up and I have no idea how to handle it. I don't like not being in control. In order to deal with this, I've learned that I should stop trying on some things and that God truly is in control of everything. Sometimes though, my plans of what I am not in control of are challenged. That's when things get tough to deal with for me.
On top of that, the person I'm looking to intern for just sent me some papers that the head of the lab wrote and co-authored. I had to google the main thing in one of the titles... That bodes well for the rest of the summer (NOT). I'm so glad that I asked for some papers on what they study and are researching, because otherwise I would look like a dunce in the interview tomorrow. Now, to read and understand 30 pages by the morning. And here I thought I was out for the summer...
Monday, May 14, 2012
Bleed It Out-Linkin Park
What a week.
Sometimes I just want to run away from the world. Good thing that is a fleeting feeling, at least most of the time it is.
In the past 7 days it feels like nothing has happened, yet the world has changed. Which is completely true.
Finished all my finals by noon last Wednesday and an hour later went in for a lumbar puncture. That in itself was an experience I hope I never have to repeat. It took forever and the PA doing it couldn't get it right. Finally after 2 hours I was done. Because it took so long I had to lie flat on my back for 24 hours. It was super annoying. By the time I made it to work on Friday, I was super excited to be done with the semester and ready to get in the mode for summer. Unfortunately, I had one of the most horrible headaches I've ever had, but it was weird because it was unlike all my migraines. Called a bunch of people and learned that there is a thing called a lumbar puncture headache. Basically, my back didn't scab over after the lumbar puncture like it should and as a result, my brain is dehydrated. What fun. It's a simple fix, they just use my blood and put it in my back to make a scab to keep my CSF where it should be. The problem was the soonest they had time to fit me in for this procedure is today at 1:30. As a result, I've had the entire weekend spent on my back and on pain medicine so I can function. I have read many books, but unfortunately, I haven't been able to focus enough to read the good books I have saved for summer. I just hope I can get my week pointed in the way I think it should be headed.
I've had time to think in the last few days. I don't do well with thinking. I prefer to just have a moment, make a decision, and go with it. I guess most people have the feelings that I'm currently feeling when they graduate from high school. I must really be behind the times, I'm just getting the 'what do I want to do for the rest of my life' freak out now. I haven't figured out anything. It'll all work out, it's just annoying waiting. Ready for this summer to start.
I'm meeting a researcher Wednesday who I will hopefully be working under for this STEP internship stuff. Who knows how all that will work out. It seems to be a hurry up and wait process, annoying but it gives me time to adjust, I guess.
I will not let this last week be what defines this summer.
Sometimes I just want to run away from the world. Good thing that is a fleeting feeling, at least most of the time it is.
In the past 7 days it feels like nothing has happened, yet the world has changed. Which is completely true.
Finished all my finals by noon last Wednesday and an hour later went in for a lumbar puncture. That in itself was an experience I hope I never have to repeat. It took forever and the PA doing it couldn't get it right. Finally after 2 hours I was done. Because it took so long I had to lie flat on my back for 24 hours. It was super annoying. By the time I made it to work on Friday, I was super excited to be done with the semester and ready to get in the mode for summer. Unfortunately, I had one of the most horrible headaches I've ever had, but it was weird because it was unlike all my migraines. Called a bunch of people and learned that there is a thing called a lumbar puncture headache. Basically, my back didn't scab over after the lumbar puncture like it should and as a result, my brain is dehydrated. What fun. It's a simple fix, they just use my blood and put it in my back to make a scab to keep my CSF where it should be. The problem was the soonest they had time to fit me in for this procedure is today at 1:30. As a result, I've had the entire weekend spent on my back and on pain medicine so I can function. I have read many books, but unfortunately, I haven't been able to focus enough to read the good books I have saved for summer. I just hope I can get my week pointed in the way I think it should be headed.
I've had time to think in the last few days. I don't do well with thinking. I prefer to just have a moment, make a decision, and go with it. I guess most people have the feelings that I'm currently feeling when they graduate from high school. I must really be behind the times, I'm just getting the 'what do I want to do for the rest of my life' freak out now. I haven't figured out anything. It'll all work out, it's just annoying waiting. Ready for this summer to start.
I'm meeting a researcher Wednesday who I will hopefully be working under for this STEP internship stuff. Who knows how all that will work out. It seems to be a hurry up and wait process, annoying but it gives me time to adjust, I guess.
I will not let this last week be what defines this summer.
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Down - Thousand Foot Krutch
I just realized that I begin almost every post with 'Sorry it's been awhile'
I'm not really sorry, I have a super busy life and only really take time to blog when I am avoid something. For instance, right now I'm avoiding studying for finals, particularly Calc III.
Illness:
-My belly:
Lots going on with my belly. If you've read much of this or were around me last semester much you know I went through some weird, un-diagnosed pain in the lower right quadrant of my abdomen. Good news: It's gone most of the time now! Wooohoo!! I have a theory that the pain was connected to the birth control I was on, but that's just my thought.
On the down side, because I'm no longer on birth control, I have the fear and pain of an ovarian cyst forming every month, but I usually ignore the pain that I feel and hope it goes away. This approach seems to be working most of the time.
Weight:
I struggle with weight. There you go, plain and simple. The semester before I started college, I gained 30 pounds. Oi. I kept that weight until this last December when I suddenly gained another 40 pounds.
Yeah, gaining weight does wonders for my self esteem.
I have been trying a bunch of stuff to work on my weight. I've been running (and if anyone knows how to avoid running, it's me), I eat healthy, I drink tons of water, I've even cut back on coke. Nothing seems to be working.
Turns out one of the medications I was on is known for making people gain weight. I've been on it close to 4 years. I just hope that now I can be healthier and not super huge and self conscious all the time.
- My head :
I had another field vision test (they stick my head in a big circle and flash different lights around, with me pressing a button when I see them). This last one, went fairly poorly. My blind spot is getting fairly big, and before you can ask, yes I have started to notice it. One thing that the Dr pointed out is how weird it is that my blind spot stops exactly in the middle. It's only on the right side. With a definite mid line stopping it before it gets to the left side.The Dr also looked at the different vessels in my eye using flourescein angiogram (They put a die in my blood system and take pictures as it's going through my eye). There was nothing that he could see wrong with it. So that's a plus.
This particular Dr's theory is that my migraines are so intense with their vaso-constriction that I am actually having mini-strokes each time. I don't know how much stock I put in thought because ever Dr has a different theory at every appointment. Although it does make sense with the language problems I go through each migraine.
Not-Illness:
It's the week before finals. Enough said.
Oh and I have a spinal tap scheduled for an hour after my last final. Next week should be a blast....
-Whit
I'm not really sorry, I have a super busy life and only really take time to blog when I am avoid something. For instance, right now I'm avoiding studying for finals, particularly Calc III.
Illness:
-My belly:
Lots going on with my belly. If you've read much of this or were around me last semester much you know I went through some weird, un-diagnosed pain in the lower right quadrant of my abdomen. Good news: It's gone most of the time now! Wooohoo!! I have a theory that the pain was connected to the birth control I was on, but that's just my thought.
On the down side, because I'm no longer on birth control, I have the fear and pain of an ovarian cyst forming every month, but I usually ignore the pain that I feel and hope it goes away. This approach seems to be working most of the time.
Weight:
I struggle with weight. There you go, plain and simple. The semester before I started college, I gained 30 pounds. Oi. I kept that weight until this last December when I suddenly gained another 40 pounds.
Yeah, gaining weight does wonders for my self esteem.
I have been trying a bunch of stuff to work on my weight. I've been running (and if anyone knows how to avoid running, it's me), I eat healthy, I drink tons of water, I've even cut back on coke. Nothing seems to be working.
Turns out one of the medications I was on is known for making people gain weight. I've been on it close to 4 years. I just hope that now I can be healthier and not super huge and self conscious all the time.
- My head :
I had another field vision test (they stick my head in a big circle and flash different lights around, with me pressing a button when I see them). This last one, went fairly poorly. My blind spot is getting fairly big, and before you can ask, yes I have started to notice it. One thing that the Dr pointed out is how weird it is that my blind spot stops exactly in the middle. It's only on the right side. With a definite mid line stopping it before it gets to the left side.The Dr also looked at the different vessels in my eye using flourescein angiogram (They put a die in my blood system and take pictures as it's going through my eye). There was nothing that he could see wrong with it. So that's a plus.
This particular Dr's theory is that my migraines are so intense with their vaso-constriction that I am actually having mini-strokes each time. I don't know how much stock I put in thought because ever Dr has a different theory at every appointment. Although it does make sense with the language problems I go through each migraine.
Not-Illness:
It's the week before finals. Enough said.
Oh and I have a spinal tap scheduled for an hour after my last final. Next week should be a blast....
-Whit
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