Sunday, November 27, 2011

StereoHearts: GymClassHeros

I've started attending a new church, don't remember if I'd mentioned it or not, fairly certain I have, anyways, it's worked out for the better.
Each week I've gone, I've been drawn some major point besides the outline.
Week 1: Be open to what the BIBLE says and not necessarily to doctrine or what I feel is right.
Week 2: This came from a praise song actually, God makes all things work together for my good (From 'Your love never fails' by Jesus Culture)
Week 3: worrying and holding grudges and allowing mistakes to become strongholds in your life.

So in a way, each week has prepared me for the next week. It's nice. Plus, at this new service, an older lady introduced herself to me and said that she'll see me next week. All of these combined make me want to go back. To have someone looking for me at church makes me want to keep going.

The main verses that touched me this last week during service:
2 Chronicles 32: 7-8
'Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him. with him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles'

Something pointed out is that God doesn't fight in the same realm that we are in. His ways are not ours. Thankfully. Our ways are CRAZY!!! I mean, we live in this country where we are free. I got even more disappointed in our society when I read an article about all the fights that broke out in WallyWorlds across the country on black Friday.
Anyways

Not much else going on in my life. Just trying to deal with insurance and medical appointments. I really hate not having my migraine medicine (the imatrex) because now I get migraines again! :( I also don't like how dependent on medicine I have become.

At least it's not as bad as my Coke addiction!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Fairytale: Alexander Rybak

Today's post is part medical update, and part 'last year at this time'.

Medical part:
I haven't heard back from any of my doctors, and Wednesday, I have my MRI for my head (because of the blind spot in my vision). I still have horrid pain in my side, which is really starting to make me mad. I had a migraine Friday, and I medicated for it with lovely codine, so it was mostly gone by Saturday. Although I took it easy the rest of the weekend.
I'm really nervous for this MRI, there's just this feeling that something is going to be terribly wrong. Last time I had an MRI they called me the next day and I was hospitalized until they could figure out what's up because my blood vessel were inflamed or something.

Last year at this time;
- Was enamored with this guy, who I haven't talked to since really
- Lived with my sister in the student ghetto area of ABQ
- Got a hamster for my birthday!! (Anerknerk)
- Was freaking out for finals, and passing Calc II.
- My mom was visiting because my sister had just had surgery on her kidney stones
- I was hanging with some people, who I no longer hang out with.
and I can't really remember anything else important.

It's amazing how much I think that every day is the most important day of ever and then you get to the next day, and it's more important. But a year later, I don't remember what days were good and which days were bad.

Today:
Nothing is really going on today, which is nice. I've talked to my sister and my mom and we're going to try me on a gluten free diet, mainly because I've changed most other things in my life to try and make my health better, but I have never taken gluten out. So now the journey begins of gluten free.
I was supposed to meet with my faculty adviser today so I can get all my school figured out. So I wanted to be prepared. To do this, I wrote out all the classes I need to graduate. When dong this, i figured out that I have 27 credits or so to take whatever I want in addition to my mandatory classes for this engineering classes and still keep full time student status. (This is due to me taking 2 more years to graduate than normal). A minor has about 21 credits, so I'm going to pick up a minor I think. At least I'm figuring all this out last night, in preparation for my meeting this morning. I picked criminology, I thought that would be cool. So I put those classes into my table (yes, I drew up a table with a timeline for each class and credits and whatnot). I went to meet this teacher at the time that we had agreed upon (11:30) and I even got there 10 min early. Then, a professor I have currently walked by looking for the professor that I was meeting. He went and found her and came back to report that she would be with me in 5 min.
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at 12:10 I gave up waiting for her. I had waited 50 min for this 30 min meeting with her. Kinda angers me. It's not like I didn't have anything else to do, I took off my scheduled work for this.

This weekend, I wound up seeing Breaking dawn (the latest twilight movie instillation). I have to be honest, it was better than I thought it would be. I laughed though most of it. There were some parts that were ridiculous and I couldn't help but laugh. Other times, I was very mad. Not because of the movie, but because the person sitting behind me kept making phone calls. DURING THE MOVIE!! She didn't even try to keep her voice down. Then, after she was off the phone, the people she was sitting with would recap all that she just missed. Oh and the kid sitting in front of us fell off/out of his chair randomly and started wailing during the serious and quiet part where someone was pretending to die. I enjoyed the soundtrack more for this one that with 2 or 3, except for the Bruno Mars part. I really don't like his music.

All in all it was a good weekend, but I'm so excited for tomorrow to be over, I'm ready for Thanksgiving and all that jazz.

Oh!! And I've stated to go to a new church. Legacy Church has a branch campus right down the street from us. My sister and I tried it last weekend, and it was about speaking in tongues, which was kinda weird for me. I was brought up Lutheran and all that seems hokey to me. But I had told myself that I would keep my mind open and at least listen, then look up what I heard in the Bible. And I've decided I like it. There were refrences for everything. As i came out of that service, I realized a few things. I don't know everything there is to know about the Bible, far from it. So I should be willing to listen and learn even if it is about something that's out of my comfort zone. This is mostly because I believe in the BIBLE not in doctrine that I was taught at a young age. So I should seek what the Bible says on it all, not what my preconceived notions on what it should say. So, I'm going to keep going and trying it, and reading my Bible more to see what it says about life. I've fallen away from reading it too much lately and I miss it.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Illness

I've been having headaches most days this week and was super down yesterday, but that might have been more of a mood thing due to a bad test. Hopefully I can get through this weekend without a migraine.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Illness

My migraine has gone away slightly, enough I can tough it through the day.  My abdomen really hurts again though. This is all so maddening. I have an MRI of my head scheduled for next Thursday,  but I just realized that I have a differential equations test that same time. So needing to switch that MRI.  Hopefully there will be an appointment that's not weeks and weeks away.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Illness

I have a migraine again. Hydrocodone hasn't even touched it. I miss the imatrex. I would take some, but the dr is worried about me having a stroke, that and I want to keep the vision I have left.
Really loving my bed today but stressing over homework.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Illness

I had the colonoscopy this past week. They found nothing wrong. Which is both good and bad. Good because there's nothing wrong with my colon, bad because we don't know what's causing my pain.

Today the pain is fairly bad, I'm nauseous and just want to curl up and sleep.