SOOOO much has been happening lately. I feel like I've jumped into the abyss. Occasionally I forget that I have God as my parachute and freak out that I'm going to die....
Goodness gracious. I don't even remember what has been happening lately. Mainly what order it's been happening in.
1) Boy drama
2) School drama
3) Friend Drama
4) body drama...
and everything can fit in those categories.
1) I told HIM that relationships, no matter what level they are, are not a one way things. And I haven't heard from him since.
2) I'm failing Calc II again... :( and working my butt off trying to pass everything else. Not may people understand what i'm going through.
3) Gave up on a lot of my friends, a lot of friends have given up on me. I'm never around. Always doing homework or sick.
4) see above comment about homework and sickness :(
I guess other than that nothing really going on in my life.
Taylor Swift's new CD came out. It's great. :D oooo new smily (_|_) i mooned you!!!! not that anyone reads this anyway.
I wanna fall head over heels in love with the guy God has picked out for me. That is what has come out of this week. However horrible it was.
I like your lips like a like my Coca-Cola. Sink me in the river at dawn. I'm not the kinda girl...
I could wait patiently, but I really wish you would drop everything now, meet me in the poring rain. Kiss me on the sidewalk take away the pain.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
JustTheWayYouAre
Write offs.
This year, I've written off so many people in my lives. Honestly, I want to go live in a cottage in the mountains and be a hermit. I predict that if this pattern of loosing and gaining friends doesn't slow down or stop soon, I'm going to be a meany face when I'm older. Plus, the friends I do have and want to keep, I can't bring myself to talk to them. They know me too well and I feel like I can't handle the truth right now.
No matter how much you have prepared for it, the truth hurts. It cuts through you with no regard for your feelings. It just is.
Why can't I just be? Why does life have to be complicated? Why can't I ever be truly content with where I am in the moment. I think this is the 3 days of migraine meds talking, but life sucks sometimes. Well, most of the time.
And my life is a walk int he park compared to some others. One of my friends cousins was shot this summer for no reason, and her (the cousins) birthday would have been today. How can my life even compare to my friends life? And why is it that through all this, my friend can still read me better than I can read myself. I have no idea what's going on with me right now. But my friends do. Is ignorance in the area of knowing yourself a good thing?
This year, I've written off so many people in my lives. Honestly, I want to go live in a cottage in the mountains and be a hermit. I predict that if this pattern of loosing and gaining friends doesn't slow down or stop soon, I'm going to be a meany face when I'm older. Plus, the friends I do have and want to keep, I can't bring myself to talk to them. They know me too well and I feel like I can't handle the truth right now.
No matter how much you have prepared for it, the truth hurts. It cuts through you with no regard for your feelings. It just is.
Why can't I just be? Why does life have to be complicated? Why can't I ever be truly content with where I am in the moment. I think this is the 3 days of migraine meds talking, but life sucks sometimes. Well, most of the time.
And my life is a walk int he park compared to some others. One of my friends cousins was shot this summer for no reason, and her (the cousins) birthday would have been today. How can my life even compare to my friends life? And why is it that through all this, my friend can still read me better than I can read myself. I have no idea what's going on with me right now. But my friends do. Is ignorance in the area of knowing yourself a good thing?
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