I love that my migraine medicine works. But i hate how it leaves me feeling

Doubt thou

Guess it's been awhile since my last blog. It's been hectic around here for sure!

I'm in a squabble with a good friend. Which is really taxing. I don't like fighting with people, but I'm done being walked over by people.

It's Thanksgiving, so I guess I should state what I'm thankful for. My friends, my family, my education, food, facebook. I could go on and on. Although I think you get the idea.

I've had time to myself lately, which is very limited but appreciated. My friend D got me hooked on a Manga series (never thought I'd be saying that I, Whit, am starting to enjoy manga). It's called Fruits Basket. It's really happy go lucky. But it's all about good values. Enjoyable. Now I'm waiting for the books to come in at the library. Hope I can get them finished before finals start. It's easier if I just lock myself away from the world.

My mother is in town unexpectedly. My sister had some pretty bad kidney stones. So my mother flew down here and helped her get surgery on it.
It's the normal mother picking on daughter because she's not good enough (Now i'm not doing the dishes well enough, which i don't mind because now I don't have to do the dishes) But something in particular that she said today really pissed me off. She said she couldn't see something on the computer, I asked her what she meant for me to do, she said, I don't know, you're supposed to do!!! hahaha it was funny, but super frustrating. And my sister is milking all this to death 'i can't do that, I hurt!!'
Amazingly, she always hurts when chores or something she doesn't want to do pops up. sigh.

Now I get to do Black Friday Shopping. Oh yay!

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth be a liar
But never die I love

Ecclesiastes 3

This year has been hard.

I've made some great friends. And lost most of them.

I'm starting to realize how much heartbreak I can take is limited. How do you keep your personality and not close off to the world? How do you meet a new people and not immediately thinking 'when is this person going to stomp on my heart?'

One of my co-workers pointed something out. Since we work so closely with death, we don't think 'we'll do it tomorrow' very often. We're always ready to be gone. Just like the people we work with were here yesterday and now are lying in front of us dead. I think that's why I'm so honest with everyone. About everything. There is no time to dance around subjects. There is no time for miss-communications. Don't go to bed upset.But with what goes on in life, how is that possible?

What do you think? Is it better to be completely upfront about everything, or to let issues play themselves out? Do you live like you have an infinite number of tomorrows, or do you live like you'll die tonight? Is there a right way and a wrong way to live?

I know that it's needed to let things play themselves out, but I think it's also important that you let people know how you feel. Even if the latter causes a little more strife in your life. It's also a question of will you actively take part of your life, or just sit by and watch what unfolds? There's a time for everything says the Lord.

Even though it hurts.

Doggies!

So.
I've got a killer migraine that won't go away. The only thing a migraine is good for is time to think.

And think.

And think...

So, I've been thinking about dogs. Again. A lot.
And I looked at animal humane society online... And found the sweetest looking dog ever. So, I posted the link to my sister and my friend commented. She has a dog and offered to be the dogs aunt until my lease is up and I can have the dog stay with me.

The dog isn't available until next week sometime. So that's good. I'm praying about this A TON. Whoever reads this, PLEASE pray for me about this whole thing. I don't want to do something God doesn't want me to do.

Please pray that if this is not right I will know not to do this.