I'm kinda bummed. Kinda really bummed. It's been a hard hard week, then my tests went bad. Then I showed up to one of my tests and the professor told me I was dropped from the class. Then in my next test there was a question I wasn't prepared for at all. It's just been a hard week. On top of that, the place our house is keeps proving to be super shady. Also, as amazing as my sister is being, I'm tired of doing most of the housework. I have a job, and homework that takes way more time, therefore, she's home more. Yet I wind up with the housework. It just doesn't make sense to me.
written 9-25-10
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
JustTheWayYouAre
Fairly certain it's been way to long since my last post.
I guess I didn't think this much homework was in store since I'm not taking engineering classes this semester. Boy was I wrong. I think it also has something to do with my drive to actually pass all my classes this semester, and not just with a low C.
I kinda stopped my big friend thing. It just got to be to disorganized, and there seems to be one girl that is taking over the sorority :( so it is good to get out.
The weird thing is that I only miss the girls, and not all of them. I seriously have too much going on. Especially to deal with all the disappointing and frustrated feelings I inevitably develop at a function where the dictator shows up. I guess I'm really frustrated with her because she dropped me for no reason, but I'm over that. It's just making me see everything that she is doing and not just the good things. Like the rose-colored glasses of friendship have finally been removed.
Work is fairly uneventful, all I can do efficiently is desk work, which there isn't much of, I've been using this time for some homework and computer time. Mostly computer time.
Last Friday I failed the should-you-drop-this-class quiz... In calc II. Minor breakdown there, but then I looked at my mistakes, one of them was an unknown trig formula, the other was because I was stupid and graphed x=-1 horizontally one below the x axis instead of vertically. Yeah stupid mistake I'm not going to make again... hopefully :$
Alright, I'm off to sleep. Because it's late and my days seem to be getting shorter and shorter every week. Mind you, there is the same amount of work involved in each day, regardless of how long the day seems.
God's Girl
~whit
I guess I didn't think this much homework was in store since I'm not taking engineering classes this semester. Boy was I wrong. I think it also has something to do with my drive to actually pass all my classes this semester, and not just with a low C.
I kinda stopped my big friend thing. It just got to be to disorganized, and there seems to be one girl that is taking over the sorority :( so it is good to get out.
The weird thing is that I only miss the girls, and not all of them. I seriously have too much going on. Especially to deal with all the disappointing and frustrated feelings I inevitably develop at a function where the dictator shows up. I guess I'm really frustrated with her because she dropped me for no reason, but I'm over that. It's just making me see everything that she is doing and not just the good things. Like the rose-colored glasses of friendship have finally been removed.
Work is fairly uneventful, all I can do efficiently is desk work, which there isn't much of, I've been using this time for some homework and computer time. Mostly computer time.
Last Friday I failed the should-you-drop-this-class quiz... In calc II. Minor breakdown there, but then I looked at my mistakes, one of them was an unknown trig formula, the other was because I was stupid and graphed x=-1 horizontally one below the x axis instead of vertically. Yeah stupid mistake I'm not going to make again... hopefully :$
Alright, I'm off to sleep. Because it's late and my days seem to be getting shorter and shorter every week. Mind you, there is the same amount of work involved in each day, regardless of how long the day seems.
God's Girl
~whit
Monday, September 6, 2010
BeautyAndTheBeast
So, I love school.
Last week was HORRENDOUS! Broke my foot. Stress fracture doing... yoga. Of all things, I get a stress fracture doing YOGA. Yeah, that's me. I'm in a walking cast for 3 weeks. Started last week on Sunday, when I lost my debit card and Drivers licence. Monday I overslept for an hour and had to miss a class. Later that day, didn't get all my Calc II homework done. Tuesday, don't really remember. Wednesday, broke my foot. Thursday, spent 4 hours getting my foot checked out, missed work. The broken foot meant the backpacking trip I've been planning since May was out.
I've been working on homework the rest of the weekend, with a wonderful movie date with my sister to the dollar theater Saturday. Sunday, slept WAY to much, but got work done. Missed church :(. Today, I got to see Thousand Foot Krutch though. Totally exciting :D
I'm really hoping that this week goes a lot better. Kinda feel a migraine coming on though, so that's not good. I almost feel ready for this week.
Deep thought time! What scares you? Is it the ride at the amusement park? Riding in a car? Is it snakes? I realized while upside down on a roller coaster ride, what scares me the most is people. People. Rides have been tested, they are predictable. Snakes, are predictably dangerous. When you are driving a car, you're in somewhat of control. Riding a plane has been tested and proved to be super safe, at least safer than most things. Guns, totally predicable, if you keep them up, they shoot a projectile when you pull the trigger.
People are not predictable. No matter how long you've known a person, they always do something that you are not expecting. This has been proven time and time again to me by people. Either they have changed, or they have not changed. The person's ability to fool you into loving, liking, or getting along with them is just part of people in general. It's also scary how completely you can give your heart to someone. It doesn't have to be a significant other to break your heart. It can be a friend that you've finally trusted who walks away from you. A friend that you kinda don't trust completely that has fooled you into thinking they care about you, then you realize that you need to walk away from them.
People and their ability to adapt to a situation is scary. Have you ever noticed how different people act around different groups of friends? That's the person adapting to fit the situation. I don't care how comfortable you are with yourself, you act differently around certain people. Those people only see the person you present them with. They don't get to see the whole picture. No one besides you knows the whole picture. God knows the whole picture and sees the ship hidden in the Micky mouse look book.
Maybe love isn't seeing the whole picture of someone, but knowing that from that one part that you see, that you would love to see the other parts of the picture that someone is willing to show you. Maybe love is helping another person draw parts of the picture. Love isn't trying to white wash the picture and start over. Love is waking up every morning and seeing something new in the picture that is sitting in front of you. Whether or not you like it, you say, that's interesting, I wonder what part of the painting this is, and how it will turn out. No matter what, you are loyal to the painting, and will continually choose to love what you see.
Wow. What a rabbit hole I went down....
Last week was HORRENDOUS! Broke my foot. Stress fracture doing... yoga. Of all things, I get a stress fracture doing YOGA. Yeah, that's me. I'm in a walking cast for 3 weeks. Started last week on Sunday, when I lost my debit card and Drivers licence. Monday I overslept for an hour and had to miss a class. Later that day, didn't get all my Calc II homework done. Tuesday, don't really remember. Wednesday, broke my foot. Thursday, spent 4 hours getting my foot checked out, missed work. The broken foot meant the backpacking trip I've been planning since May was out.
I've been working on homework the rest of the weekend, with a wonderful movie date with my sister to the dollar theater Saturday. Sunday, slept WAY to much, but got work done. Missed church :(. Today, I got to see Thousand Foot Krutch though. Totally exciting :D
I'm really hoping that this week goes a lot better. Kinda feel a migraine coming on though, so that's not good. I almost feel ready for this week.
Deep thought time! What scares you? Is it the ride at the amusement park? Riding in a car? Is it snakes? I realized while upside down on a roller coaster ride, what scares me the most is people. People. Rides have been tested, they are predictable. Snakes, are predictably dangerous. When you are driving a car, you're in somewhat of control. Riding a plane has been tested and proved to be super safe, at least safer than most things. Guns, totally predicable, if you keep them up, they shoot a projectile when you pull the trigger.
People are not predictable. No matter how long you've known a person, they always do something that you are not expecting. This has been proven time and time again to me by people. Either they have changed, or they have not changed. The person's ability to fool you into loving, liking, or getting along with them is just part of people in general. It's also scary how completely you can give your heart to someone. It doesn't have to be a significant other to break your heart. It can be a friend that you've finally trusted who walks away from you. A friend that you kinda don't trust completely that has fooled you into thinking they care about you, then you realize that you need to walk away from them.
People and their ability to adapt to a situation is scary. Have you ever noticed how different people act around different groups of friends? That's the person adapting to fit the situation. I don't care how comfortable you are with yourself, you act differently around certain people. Those people only see the person you present them with. They don't get to see the whole picture. No one besides you knows the whole picture. God knows the whole picture and sees the ship hidden in the Micky mouse look book.
Maybe love isn't seeing the whole picture of someone, but knowing that from that one part that you see, that you would love to see the other parts of the picture that someone is willing to show you. Maybe love is helping another person draw parts of the picture. Love isn't trying to white wash the picture and start over. Love is waking up every morning and seeing something new in the picture that is sitting in front of you. Whether or not you like it, you say, that's interesting, I wonder what part of the painting this is, and how it will turn out. No matter what, you are loyal to the painting, and will continually choose to love what you see.
Wow. What a rabbit hole I went down....
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